Yes Its true I was not going to post any more. Just did not feel the motivation to post about life, mine, my family or others. I decided I needed to vent someplace so why not here. Christmas was very good, as was New Years. Things have changed some what, so I'm stressed. I try nor to get worked up over it. First youngest son didn't finish his Basic Training. Due a P.T. issue. So he is held over for another few weeks. He was able to come home for Christmas. Yesterday (Friday) he traveled back to Post. This is delaying his starting AIT. Won't be home for another 18 to 20 weeks. Mid may or early June. This I understand. We don't like it but...Life moves on.
Yesterday ( Friday) was a crappy day for several reasons.
#1. Scott leaving home again ...
#2 Anniversary for my injury OJI..2003. Crushed right foot and amputation surgery. Seems like a life time ago. 17 years in fact, it changed all of our lives. I still have issues with that.
#3. Issues with our van. Charging system no working any longer. Alternator needs replacement. We now have to stay in very close to home. I can charge the battery with a charger. We will have to wait a couple of months to save up for the repair.
#4. I now have to take a leave from CAP. Don't want to risk the car breaking down on a back county road in the dark. I understand I can't help any of this from happening. Trying not to stress, and learn from these lessons in life.
Once again I place this burden in the hands of God. He will show us how to handle these events, learn, praise him for his blessings.
The biggest stress that I have is I am now weeks away from turning 60 yrs of age or level of experience in life. Both my Grandpa, and mom passed away at age of 60. This weighs heavy on my mind.
Well I think I vented enough for a while... Stay Safe and warm.
Rob
16 comments:
I'm glad we were here for for you. You have friends who have been and will continue praying for you. Do the best you can and things will eventually work out. As for your age, my dad died at 59, but I'm still here at 64, even though the devil tried to prevent that. May God's will be done in all our lives.
Gorges said it better than I can. Hang in there, my friend. Praying for you.
Thank you. I knew I could post here again, even to vent.
Thanks Ms Vicki, I have been told I tend to over think. I feel its better to over think then not think at all.
Hang in there and keep posting. We all have good days and some "not so good" days. We are all in this together. Take care and don't be afraid to ask God for his blessing...He will provide.
Amen, to all of the above. No one knows when their time is up - so there is no sense in sitting around expecting it to end. It will, in due time, but on God's timeframe. You have things to do and lives to touch. Prayers lifted up for you, my friend.
~hobo
Hang in there Rob. We all have troubles and trials some more severe than others.
Not making myself out as a "tough guy" or a stronger person, but you wouldn't believe some of the trials I have faced and am facing in the last seven years. Still the Lord continues to bless and keep me. Below are a few scriptures that I hide in my heart and call upon to sustain my sanity and well being in the roughest times.
Romans 8:28
Psalms 91 (the entire chapter)
Matthew 21:22
I hope things improve for you.
Kindest regards from
Jeffery in Alabama (from The Feral Irishman)
Than you CW. Its folks like you and the others that encourage me to continue posting.
Thank you Hobo. I know my life is in good hands with God, my family watching me, and my Dr. My mom gave up on living. Her family was gone. Mom, Dad & Brother. She thought she was alone. That made me mad because she had my Dad, my brother, my wife and her 5 grand kids. Now she is missing the changes going on with the kids, and Sam my grand son.
Jeffery Thank you so much. Since our return home, I have prayed daily for guides to the right paths needed. while some did, those that didn't showed the way to better a better path.
I am glad to hear it. I belong to a small country church and our pastor is 86 years old. He is more of teacher than a preacher. Nonetheless, he is very effective in his role. One of his favorite sayings is "we live so far beneath the provision that the Lord has allotted us simply because we fail to pray and believe". I am paraphrasing to some degree, but you get the gist. I am guilty of this myself from time to time. Keep the faith and stay strong.
Good luck and Godspeed,
Jeffery
Finding a good mentor can be difficult now days, too many hypocrites. We where told at one time that we where chasing rainbows, by a pastor. We moved to a different state, and returned as things didn't work out. My trust in his mentoring dropped greatly. God moved us to another church that we felt comfortable with.
Sometimes I wonder why some people are tested so much, and others seem to have a smoother path... I have no answers, but I am wishing you better times ahead.
Sbrgirl Thanks for stopping by. i don't understand why some do and some don't, all I know is I'm blessed with strong family and friend support.
Don't give up the blog. Sounds like depression is your battle right now and when you win you'll wish you didn't quit.
Can you tell me what a P.T. issue is?
Sure Mike, Its a physical training test. He needed to pass one part called a leg lift. You pull your legs up to your chest, He missed passing by a 1/4 inch. Never mind that he passed every other test, including a long distance march carrying a large load on his back. We thought at the end they would just sign him off as passed. But they did not. Scott is now a hold over and must complete anther PT Test to stay in the Army National Guard.
This now puts him two weeks behind in his maintenance classes. His training now keeps him in GA until mid May or June sometime..He was told that his unit will be deployed to the horn of Africa, for a few months, maybe a year not sure. and 4 years from now in Kuwait. He will be gone a year for sure. 3 months in TX, then 9 mouths in country. I talked to Scott Sunday after he returned to base, but he still had no idea want was going to happen. Nothing stated in black and white.
Yes I am battling depression among some other issues.
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